![]() I think it’s a wonderful thing that the stigma surrounding mental health is slowly lifting, it’s normal people! Everyone has good days and bad days regarding their state of mind and I’m happy that I’m now comfortable enough to find writing about mental health the same way I do my physical health. ![]() ![]() Last week, I had a little glitch in the mental health system – another reason why I decided to take a little step back from the blog and from social media. Glasses – Glasses Direct, Necklace – Daniella Draper Walk away the battle they are fighting isn’t with you, it isĭress – River Island, Shoes – Kurt Geiger, Watch – Larsson & Jennings, ![]() There are some people who always seem angry and continuously look forĬonflict. I have to remind myself not to let any of it sink in and to not let anyone dull my sparkle. I’ll only say it once – blowing out someone else’s candle doesn’t make yours shine brighter! There’s been so, so many instances were people have tried to put me down, my work, my body, my opinions and my personality. As the title of this post suggests, I find the idea of putting people down in order to lift yourself up a difficult one to digest. It’s taken a long time for me to accept but I really do hold on to things and I need to be able to acknowledge this as appose to ignore it. I have such a hard time doing it but I know I need to in order to move forward and grow as a person. At the moment I’m trying to let go of things that have happened in the past. Sometimes I’ll be having a great day and one comment can completely turn it upside down. I write it because I figure/hope I’m not the only person that has these thoughts and struggles with these things. I find posts like this hard to write, it’s so hard to articulate these kind of thoughts and so my writing tends to trail off into some kind of ramble but please stick with it. In fact it’s standing on stage as a character or taking fashion shots as ‘littlemisswinney’ that I find easy, It’s not me – It’s my character and so I feel less vulnerable. Yes, I find it easy to stand and glance off into the distance while someone presses click on a camera and yep, I can stand on a stage and sing/dance whilst the audience watches me but again, this doesn’t mean I’m 100% confident with who I am as a person. I think the common mistake that people make about me is ‘oh she takes pictures and poses in front of a camera – she must love herself’ when in fact that’s not the case at all. I sometimes take things to heart but instead of big, dramatic events it’ll more likely be a singular comment made by someone – months or years back and I’ll allow it to slowly chip away at my self confidence instead of facing it head on. I don’t enjoy bringing people down or asserting authority and I often find it difficult to stand my ground when I feel intimidated. I hate confrontation, I’d rather walk away from a situation or calmly talk through a disagreement rather than have a shouting match. However underneath that lies a rather fragile sense of self worth. I find it easy to make conversation and wouldn’t get nervous about entering a room full of strangers. On first glance and even to those who know me quite well, I can seem really confident. I’d love to have a film crew follow us one day when we’re shooting so you could see the real ‘behind the gram’ goings on because wow, the things we do to get a shot you wouldn’t believe! Anyhu, I wanted to write this post with this very apt title – ‘Don’t let anyone dull your sparkle’ because it’s something I imagine we all need to hear and more so, something I really need to start listening to. Although on first glance they may look care free and graceful, getting there was quite the mission and had both Zoe and I in fits of tears and laughter. Although we don’t get sunshine here that often, British summertime really does bring out the best in people and seeing every ones smiling faces made the last few days simply beautiful! So after a little break and some much needed TLC, I’m now rested and ready to get back to it, which brings to this post – these images are some of my favourites ever shot with the wonderful Zoe. This also coincided with some seriously stunning weather here in the UK so I decided to skip a week of blogs and allow myself to simply enjoy it without worrying about followers, likes and analytics. Hi gang, sorry for the (unintentional) break, I’d had enough of social media last week and so decided to have a mini detox.
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